Mexico Missions Trip, The Full Story

DISCLAIMER: This may be super long, because alot went on on this trip, hopefully I can shorten it to the main point!

So I'm going to start off by saying that its funny how when you go on these trips you think your being selfless in going, but I have to admit I was selfish, because I was sad that I didn't feel impacted until the last day, when I realized, one that just serving someone food or the painting we did is bigger than I can even comprehend to them, it means everything that we would make them a bracelet out of yarn. But I also have to say that after going on this trip, the reason its taken me so long to write this is because i've been overwhelmed with my calling, and life itself, and God has been overwhelming me with his grace and mercy. The one huge thing I walk away with from this trip is that I feel God revealed more of my purpose on the trip. I've never felt so content and comfortable as I did when I was working with the kids there and the women in the rehab, just meeting new people and being there to hug them and love on them is so much to me. I really feel a calling to do more in missions, which was never even on my mind before this, I never thought God would use me in this way, but it took this trip to reveal it so thank you Lord that I went! Another thing that was cool on this trip was that the last day when we had a service for the women, Cory did her testimony and after everyone was crying and we started praying for the women there and I felt this gut feeling that I need to pray and just hold this woman next to me, Elisabeth. It turns out she had just gotten out of detox and was there for drugs, spoke little English, and so I just started praying and crying and hugging her knowing, at least she would hopefully be able to understand the love I was trying to give. After we finished praying she told me that she felt the presence of God in her and that she would always remember me for bringing her that, and that seriously brought me to tears, not that I already wasn't, but to have someone tell you that you made a difference, no one has ever told me that before, I felt so in awe of God, because it wasn't me it was God. There was also another girl I felt lead to pray over and she was the youngest girl, 12 and there for behavioral issues, and it was cool to connect because she got that I was close to her in age, that I wasn't like overshadowing her, and when we were leaving the rehab she ran up to me and gave me a big hug and said she loved me and started crying in my arms, and that was also a huge moment for me, it was God again showing me how amazing and awesome he is. I'm not the same after this trip, God has covered my brokenness with his love and grace. This experience will never leave me. Its sad now to think about it because like everyone has told me, it feels like I left my heart there, and all I want more than anything is to go back and finish what I started.